I’ve sat down to type so many times lately. I stare at a blank screen, cursor flashing, trying to think thoughts….but nothing.
It’s a new year. What should I proclaim as the first post of 2017?
Can you hear and feel all that pressure? Ugh.
Then, on a run today, I told Him that I was stuck. I was drowning. I needed His help. “What do YOU want me to do, God?”
Yes, He smiled. Exactly.
Each year brings new joys and new sorrows, new experiences and the end of experiences. We are turning new directions this year. We are going to be doing new things this year,
meeting new people,
starting new jobs,
and wearing new hats
as we play new roles.
God does not lead our lives the way I like to decorate: set it all up and leave it that way for years.
No, He creates new scenes for us, scenes of beauty and laughter, tears and growth — just like a good movie.
For I am about to do something new.
See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? ( Isaiah 43:19)
New things scare the heck out of me. Even new paint colors sometimes. What if what’s coming is not something I will like? What if I will absolutely hate this new thing?
I’ve already begun it, He said.
But if I’ve learned anything in 2016 – through an unwanted divorce, an unwanted move, more unwanted loss – it’s that I don’t have to be scared. In the joys and the sorrows, the unknowns and the expectations, our God is so good. I see now that in the midst of the painful, shredding experiences of my heart in recent years, He was simultaneously weaving parts of even those pieces together for what I’m doing now in my joy.
You have been chosen to know me, believe in me,
and understand that I alone am God.
There is no other God—
there never has been, and there never will be.
I, yes I, am the Lord,
and there is no other Savior.
First I predicted your rescue,
then I saved you and proclaimed it to the world.
No foreign god has ever done this.
You are witnesses that I am the only God,”
says the Lord.
“From eternity to eternity I am God.
No one can snatch anyone out of my hand.
No one can undo what I have done.” (Isaiah 43:10-13)
Do you hear how safe you are with Him? How unlike any other He is? How nothing surprises Him? Do you hear the love in His voice when He talks about rescuing us and saving us and how He chooses us?
Completely loving. All-powerful. There is no safer combination.
So despite the unknowns in our lives — where will I be this year, what will I do, who will come in or out of my life — we can rest. He’s good, and He’s got 2017 in His pocket.
New is not scary if He’s in it.
I can securely unclench my fist and simply ask, “God, what do YOU want me to do in 2017?”
And when you ask that question, you know it will be a good year.